Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Fighting Demons

They say, as in just people of society, of our world; they say that everybody has their own demons that they fight through a daily basis. I agree with this statement for the most part. Before I explain why I don't always agree with it, I will talk about the different demons that we do face. Which is much more than our own, but we can claim them as our own.
We fight our own, our friends' , and our family's.
The demons that belong to other people that we fight, now become our own demons as well.  Not only that, but sometimes, the demons we fight, are other people. They're not always something you can't physically feel or see. Sometimes, they're the ones we can easily touch the most. The real people in our lives. Our "enemies", as we like to call them.
Now, as for why I don't always agree with this statement, is that sometimes we can win over our demons and we don't let them conquer our lives. We don't let the control it, and for that reason, sometimes we just don't have to fight. Other times, our demons just refuse to fight. This is where me and my demons are at now. I want to fight them, but they don't want to fight me. I guess this is still fighting in a way, them resisting to battle, but I don't see it that way. I don't consider this battling my demons. I'm trying to get my demons to quit laying around so we can fight. I want to battle my demons, but they don't want to fight! They don't have the energy to. Does this mean I have won? No, and that's by a long shot. I'm too worn out to fight and so are they. This leaves me stuck in an awkward position because I can't fight and neither will they. They don't have it in them anymore. This stage is the stage of giving up. Giving up on whatever it is that you're fighting. My demons find it useless to keep going. Does that mean we can make up and become friends? No, because they're not supposed to be my friends. But this is exactly what they're doing. They're too tired to fight, so they try to be my friend. Because I'm a friendly person, I give in and become their friend. Now I'm friends with my demons. They are taking over my life. They have won without even trying.